Are you a political animal? I have
always watched political shenanigans from afar, voting when asked and then
getting on with my life. But, I have to admit these political times are addictively
fascinating – sort of like a train wreck.
When I found myself checking CNN as it
rehashes every detail and opinion possible, or even impossible about the
ongoing hoo haa in Washington, I realized I was doing the same thing I needed
to go to Alanon meetings for – I was obsessed with what the other guys were
doing. And in my humble opinion they were doing it annoyingly and scarily bad,
bad, bad.
Doesn’t matter which political party
you are devoted to, that obsession is probably sucking you in, just like it was
doing to me.
So I went back to my Alanon training
and decided to start with the first step and admitted I was powerless for the moment
over Washington. Take a look at what I wrote in ‘Side by Side – the Twelve
Steps and A Course in Miracles’ and see
if it helps you, too.
Step One - We admitted we were powerless over alcohol (or in this
case the idiots in Washington) —that our lives had become unmanageable ( with fussing, worrying and bouts of anger).”
“All
of us eventually way “Enough!” We recognize that all the pathways we followed
before, all the attempts to control our lives (or others!), all the manipulation of relationships, all the anger
dumped and guilt accepted hasn’t brought us any real release. Eventually all of
us say, “There’s got to be a better way.”
Until this point is reached we will
continue to try out methods based on pain, which promise relief. Not until the
pain becomes too great to ignore, or too great to rationalize will we look for
another way to lead our lives.
At this point we are willing to gamble
on anything that will help. Let there be one spark of hope that the old methods
will still work, let there be one shred of doubt as to the efficacy of gambling
on the new, and the bottom hasn’t been reached. For each of us that bottom is
uniquely our own. No one can decide for you when you have had enough pain and
no particular incident will be the motivator — we each choose our own limit.
But the experience will be the same: We no longer feel we are able to control
any aspect of our lives without disaster and so we desperately try ANYTHING
else to find release.
After all, we reason, what have we got
to lose?”
This
first step spoke eloquently to me once again. I had let my opinions get the best of me and now I must practice letting everyone do and be
just the way they are without worrying about them. I do this by going to the second
and third steps and give the whole mess to the Holy Spirit to sort out. If H.S.
wants me to participate in some way, I will be told.
So, with a deep breath I
now watch the news with careful discrimination and take the attitude it is one
huge comedy, have a really good laugh and get some solid shuteye.
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